The Coil

There is a sudden desire to undress
It’s urgent as if all depends on it
I shiver regardless
My body shakes but it must come off
I get under the covers
I seek warmth or reassurance

I’m not sure what I know
A headache grows
Pounding like a drum
Surging over everything
The drum gives me warmth
I struggle to pull a sheet over me
Someone is holding it
I look but no one is there
The drum gives me strength
I mightily wrestle it away
The sheet wraps me
The cold recedes as does the drum

The coil that forms my brain unravels
Slowly at first
It gathers speed
How did I not know it was a coil?
Laughter rises as a Cinnabon appears
Yes, the coil is delicious
As the coil unravels I worry
What happens at the end?
The unraveled brain flat like ribbon
Will it pile up around me?
I have to get up to pick up the ribbon

I look outside
Well below my window they are there
The undead walk to and fro
Do they know about the coil?
Do they have a coil?
Maybe they are just jumbled ribbons

A chuckle noise distracts me
It’s me, I’m laughing at the undead
And their jumble ribbon brains
Maybe I can show them
We could put their ribbon brains in a coil
Maybe they’ll stop being undead
They could hear the drum
What happened to the drum?

The coil is gone and I’m falling
Falling into the void where the coil once was
I have to call someone
Can someone help me gather the ribbon?
Maybe keep me from falling
Before I call I better get dressed
Being undead and naked is embarrassing

What’s the front and what’s the back?
Ribbon brain is not that smart
Clothes come on quickly

Where is the phone?
I dial something
A voice answers in Swahili
A least it sounds like it
My mouth opens and the drum beats
She hangs up calls me an idiot
Idiot in Swahili sounds sweet
Maybe I’ll just wait
Someone will find me covered in ribbon
My friends are smart
They’ll know how recoil it

Six hours pass as I watch the undead
They walk aimlessly
Why don’t they pick up the ribbon brains?
My brain starts to recoil on its own

I’m hungry, I’m so hungry
I pick up the phone again
Rick picks up the line
He sounds like an undead
I think he’s upset
Did I interrupt him?
He shows up, eventually
He’s with Jackie
They are arguing
Rick the undead with ribbon brain
And Jackie with a tight coil
Why can’t we get along?

I’m hungry, is it dinner time yet?
They agree that it is

We meet with Mark outside
The undead have listened to me
They have gathered their coils tight
Even Rick has although he’s still upset
I haven’t eaten in 3 days
I eat a lot
My coil brain forgets
My coil brain will become Judas

For twenty years it will betray me
Maybe I should let it be ribbons
Or maybe just a Cinnabon.


I make lists.  The lists I make are not useful in any way.  They are not “to do” lists or other proper lists.  Growing up I used to keep track of the songs I liked, a personal top 10 chart of sorts.  I would keep the lists in a book, and at the end of the year I’d have my favorite songs of the year.  One day I decided that I would make a mix tape of the previous year’s songs.  That morphed into burning CDs, and now I make playlists on iTunes.

I’ve just completed my 2011list.  Instead of sharing my top 100, which would be pretty ridiculous, here is my top 5.

Half Of Something Else  – The Airborne Toxic Event

Underneath the Sycamore – Death Cab for Cutie

Stay – Diego Garcia

Cassette Tape – Katie Costello

Eyes – Peter Bjorn and John

The older I get, the mellower I get, I think.

February Haikus


When you headed out

I fell back to sleep quickly

Think you could wake me?



Of all the things said

You always know how to soothe

And make it all right



What were you dreaming?

You moved slowly but peaceful

Have you remembered?



Come closer, it’s time

To tell us the assembled

Mean or happy thoughts



In the light of day

My dreams come true every day

Life is as it should



I read a fortune

Get what you deserve, it said

Lost or meaningless?



In the cold winter

Thoughts rattle around my brain

Without ways to grow



Words are tricky tools

Once wielded in abandon

Upon a poor fool



A day in advance

Time ebbs and flows like water

I am quite confused



Became a new boy

Lost in the woods near his home

Convinced day is night



That day in my mind

I cannot ever forget

Would you be able?



Never to forget

Find ways to always be close

My love, me and you



Way out there, ahead

You smile broadly at how we’ve

Discovered our truth



Me and you are here

And we come closer each day

Gave of each other



Me and you are there

Everything around us knows

Back there they’re waiting



And at the center

More of our lives will be there

How sweet it all is



Can you understand?

I keep running out of words

Ever is just now



Repay what you owe

This day and always, we must

Debt is not comfort



Teach me how to dream

Me in the clouds near your soul

To rise above all



Accept what happens

What doesn’t kill you makes you strong

We are our own proof



Have you said goodbye

Without feeling sense of loss

Examining life



It all reminds me

To be present in now lest

Death breaks us apart



Show me your desires

Me? I only have the one

How do you not know?



To know what is next

Be it tomorrow or not

Myself and yourself



And in the sole end

Just what we have now it can

Be more than everything



Love is what makes us

Me, you, our whole family

The truth is simple



Way in the future

Only the Fates know what’ll be

You know my full hope



Can time wait enough?

Love drives all our desires

Me and you and who?



Hold me tightly, please

My world spins so very fast

Hand steady on mine